Sunday, July 18, 2010

The test of Self




Everything is defined in time, even when you want to make it go faster, true my course give you it abit faster but thats olny to show how much you still got to learn, you are made aware by the factors and hard work you do to be worthy of your "passage", get over the i do this, do that and i get crap, or i deserve this.. such thinking is best left to beginners, not experts, as i say if you can't stand the heat then get out of the kitchen,... work is work, dedication is the strength to be dedicated, its an on going factor of self disipline, not the "stress and strain of slavery" ...if you think that and don't respect your lessons they i feel why be there....

The powers, the natures the glory of enlightenment is a passage a maze of self and other personal discoveries, any who are into themselves need not apply...for they will be bored, lose focus, and attack the ongoing training required to be a student of "wizardry".....

In this fast paced world you have 2 choices, to get it right the first time, or to do it over, and, over, and over again, until you do... thats not fair you say... i can just go to any order or design and do as i wish , study as i want, and just be accepted as i will, TRUE... but when your finished with them, compare notes, you will see 100 of them and only one of you or I.....

so they can preach 100 times faster with 100 percent less skill, dedication is like the river turning into a lake it takes time for all that driving water to wear away the earth and clay to make this lake... and once it is then so to will it be looked at differently....

The purpose is set by the work your willing to do, anyone can teach you tricks, but can they show you the meaning of it all...and show you "your person" and what touches on this.. this is the gift and the choice of those who are more then dedicated, they are ACCEPTED by that which they gave over control to and it (Called Back)

Reaction: the nature of why we seek to know, to have, to be... Right?


Saturday, July 3, 2010

The mark of the dark witch


It is the common practice of those dedicated to the arts to having markings to show loyalty, inked on in the beginning, but fade as you go, they are burned into the heart and soul of the one who is dedicated to that practice...

Here is one of the 5 dark marks added to the body in ritual to help awaken the self to be ready for the mirror like journey that awaits those who are on their road to discovery...

Don't let this picture fool you, you don't see the other secret natures within, for you here only see a shadow of all that goes into this practice, and only those who by "oath" will see the rest, you can say they are spawn of the devil, succubi, or minions of evil and torment... but they are not... Its easy to try and give bad imagery to something you don't even understand or chosen to accept, to say your more spiritual or godly too... but even you will face this "awakening" as you venture out of the comfort of being told what to do, to the darkness of discovering it yourself...

FREEDOM to find out, is one of the reasons we have self delusional conflicts over stupid ideals, only to later come to the conclusion that we are more alike then most admit....

Sense when have we as "learning and advancing minds" ever not had the right to feel and see and share in the "mysterious world about us", true the modern churches try and protect us from our "sinning" ways, but what is it to sin, if you have no concept other then what they don't allow you to understand, how are you to know left from right if you never stepped that direction....

What is light if you never seen shadow and visa versa, and aren't we a living organism that isn't just one thing, taught this in varying schooling levels and explored in books and media almost every day...

In ancient times temple goddess like messengers was marked as so as well, so as to set up the energy and ritual natures that marked them respected about this world and the worlds unseen...
for they was shown there is more and thereby more to themselves within and outside...

Any who take these type of journeys are the stronger for it, because they aren't into just the games and toy like nature of just living in the moment, but being pulled and assisted and tamed into learning about things others are going to be hunting them down to ask questions by, because they too "unseen" have felt and needed to see in themselves....

What is a dark witch, well darkness is a miss-communication to most who aren't aware its part of natural life, and being witchy within it is to learn how to communicate the right way of seeing within it... (the cat is a great example) its eyes get attuned to the red spectrum "infra red" so it can see more... and not get as easily trapped....

for as i learned and share in the mature private rituals of our design, it is only for those who aren't like everyone else, who want and are called to look into the shadows and who are dedicated to their womanly and secret natures of the spirit....

for they will be the only who can get beyond this simple maze into the art and arms of mastery
of self, and sight....

True males venture here as well, but we are MAGUS, and though we are the keeper of the secrets, they are the pillars they was written on.. "modern world" calls them obelisk......

and what is written as we know in magic(k) is often done.....

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Fustrations in the Arts


Study, Study, Study, sure you get information, but do you really get direction?

Do you get to feel and live in the harmony of it, I for one find when you are what you say the road to get to others and materials opens to you....

IT DOESN'T EVER CLOSE,

If it seems to close its because your apart of the reason its happening, hate to make you mad at me, but it has to be said... I find that those who say thy are wanting this or that, but when faced with work/set backs and bad others, they just get angry and then attack those about them, until they find someone or something to agree to...

Saddly i was apart of this mistaken image, If you are what you say and or as dedicated as you seek, then why are you trying to tell the others who wanted you to advance, you know more, do more and show more, unless your willing to actively .... PROVE IT, i know i just got a few enemies with that statement but Really now, aren't you willing to follow until your ready to lead, or are you just to good for your own good....

R E S P E C T, doesn't give you the right to come into a system or design and say your this or that, actively (prove it, and if you are this, then the tide will change)....

it works more like this not like those forgive me, self educational books of ego,

I have for the last 12 years heard nothing but talk and wiccan messages with witchcraft, druid, mage or other hopes, and have over 1,000 friends.... can you get that many if they all think you are nothing..hell no... (even my enemies want to try and be my friends)

My Advice.... lessen your id / ego / eclectic side and just try and learn like the young student you are within, or try and be the charitable example of adeptness that makes others want to give you a gift or APPLE for the teacher...

you need only follow what seeks you, and respond the same, don't give yourself anything your not due, and when denied it.. from others prove it in a message or design, then do as one should...
try and make them see reason, if they can't.. then you have done all you could anyway...

TURN THE OTHER CHEEK, heck no....

But be a teacher or be a student, don't be an argument that stops you from getting what you wanted, even those with no heart see reason....eventually...

"i like to say in my study messages, and replies", if you can't understand what i am saying, then it isn't meant for you...

(how can i say this?)

WORDS real reasoning can be felt out, like scrabble, it helps you "naturally" to find the words true meaning... if your seeking... I find yes, they are seeking, but no they aren't wanting to learn unless its free or its easy, or it is "speak and spell"......

I find that this is more self focus and not the process of one who wants in,

My past: I was walking home at 4:00am in the morning from a friends home after an argument, i was so mad about nothing, but couldn't see it, after passing a now common place, i met a man "who would eventually be my wizard teacher" but at that time, i am seeing this light outside and feel i need to get a drink.... so i think its open and heard music so.... i go in.. and i see a machine vending type, and i put my money in and it isn't working, that pissed me off again, and so i kicked it, not realizing that in another room was music... and a man came in.. and said, so it got you as well. I said yes, he said let me show you a trick, and holds out his hand and touches the machine, and it vends... "cool huh", he says... i said yeah its my money... i go the drink, and he says... "so not willing to share, huh", i lost my money as well.... he says as well.... i say to him... if we had cups i would share, he says, "thank you"........ and returns to the music in the next room.... as he goes to the doors and opens them, he winks and says he will see me soon...

This is what happens when we just try and share what at times i feel we both might lose instead of gaining, if we are to greedy with our journey and not try and.... live in the moment...

There is more to this story, as you will see... but.... that's another day...

he later told me it wasn't his brand of soda.......