To be a student of the arts you can't ask, your invited...
true you seek and are sought but there is more to you then you know,
otherwise why seek, just to feel more aware...??
No, i feel as the saying goes those who are within their own light or darkness know who is within it as well....
Like common animals we want to group, share, learn and then return to being all our own, it is an instinctive nature as well as a social one...
We are not trying to be unsocial, just define the right to have what we have now...
however if you don't have it, and you seek it, then the energy and dedication to it should be your first quest...
YES QUEST, until you are you may feel you belong, but the arts disagree, they say prove to me you belong, not to invalidate your desire or your trust or willingness to accept teaching, but to challenge you to think of why you are worthy, so when you are in this "hot seat" with another you can then say as it is being said to you...
The Ancient world required tokens of your desire, oaths , required rituals of entrance and any REAL study or design has the same faiths, even though knowledge and wisdom and advice is free, you are not free to recieve education.. education is a design or practice to validate the information or invalidate the information/opinion... before you and they who have such teachings even if you pay them, have the right to decide when, not you...
Its always been this way, and if you say... "well its time it changed", FORGET IT
it will never change, it is a process that requires more then it offers in the beginning so get use to it, otherwise get out..or make your own and see it trampled by those who aren't as dedicated as the statement of "requesting it to be free or easier" in your own design...
Education is a path but not the highway, it is the light but not the brake you stop at when your car is ready to move, the journey is the passion to see it not to hold it....
That holding of it comes later as others see it in you and then see why you are where you are and they aren't...
some say to be, but it doesn't matter i will learn it my way and the i will show you.....
"i am still awaiting them to show me!!!"
Learn as you wish, it is a spiritual and and educational system, not an opinion or requirement beyond what you bring to it...
but don't say you want to life a mountain, and then not expect to do the needed training and strength like lessons to do it physically, because here you will do the sweat, tears and if need blood.... to move that mountain...
and those mind intellectuals, play the game and the word programing... but in magick your just a kid with a box of tinker toys, and the sooner you learn this the sooner you can put forth the effort to gain more with that tinker toy and your genius like brain....
Fear, doubt and envy are good here as well, you will see that as you study you will just vanish and be no more if you bring this...
And i love the dark women of power and presence trying to say they are "not willing to do this or that" so much for your darker occult like natures, you are making rules in a book you can only sign into and sign out of... (like it or not its true)....
To be dedicated to something is to learn it, eat it, and suffer within it to an extent, otherwise why want it... why belong to something you want to make the rules within, are you that petty to feel you need to control everything, then become a church...its easier, and requires you to just show up...
The art of anything is about the art not the artist, until they are the art themselves, then the full picture is clear and they can then draw their own vision within the master works, prove this wrong.. true there are natural artist, but they have to be inspired, dream challenged, and even handicapped to see their new work arrive... in these the challenge isn't within the art its within their very soul..
But what am i saying:
you came to your art willing to learn right, not willing to challenge it before you even tried it, and to do as your spirit and oath commanded right?
because to me these are the only ones i ever see years with, sure the others are my friends...
but thats all they are...
7-10 years later they look back and ask me, why didn't i push harder to make them this or that, when i saw their potential.....
Class anyone know that answer?
You said you wanted to know, i said i wanted to show you.............
you said i'm dedicated.... you tried to tell me you was but only if it went this way or that...
Well, now you know it wasn't me who denied you anything....
Luxas
Now you see i just wanted to give you what you asked for......
As my magus and wizard teacher put it
"to challenge the lesson is to learn a new lesson, not directly what you asked for" but the one your accepting as the only lesson you will accept "rejection"...
